Void made me feel human

మొత్తానికి ఇల్లు కొనడం జరిగింది . కానీ ఏదో వెలితి . వెలితి అనడం కంటే చీకటి అంటే సరిపోతుంది . వెలితి అంటే ఏదో miss అవ్వడం . చీకటి అంటే ఏమీ లేకపోవడం . శాస్త్రి గారు చెప్పినట్టు "మనకోసమే తనలో తను రగిలే రవి తపనంతా ... కనుమూసిన తరువాతనే పెను చీకటి చెబుతుందా. " That void which i felt in my heart ,after registration, made me feel as a human with lot of conscience. Traveling with a clear conscience. Its a good sign.

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Nomadic Inner Life

I let my mind wander wherever it wants — into places judged right or wrong, meaningful or meaningless. Rules have never bound me; it’s not that I reject them, I simply lack the energy or will to follow them. Laziness, perhaps, but also a quiet indifference. Whether it’s daily rituals like pooja or even personal hygiene, I never gave them much importance. Pain or discomfort I endure until it becomes unbearable, only then do I seek help. I accept such things as karma rather than reshaping my lifestyle. I am reckless with myself, not out of rebellion but out of carelessness. I’ve never found a compelling reason to change. When I see organized, disciplined people, I feel happiness for them and a deep respect. Yet I never feel inspired to follow their path. I simply don’t care enough. Maybe some hidden trauma shaped this indifference, dulling my sense of urgency toward life. Or maybe this is just who I am — a wanderer of mind and habit, respecting order but never seeking to own it. But...

Khairiyat

When i work, often i leave the choice of music to Youtube and now i'm stuck with this song. While everything sounds so soothing in Arijit's voice, it is the lyric that caught my attention. Agar Ishq Se Hai Mila, Phir Dard Se Kya Gila Is Dard Mein Zindagi Khush-haal Hai, Yeh Dooriyaan Filhaal Hain Writing is an art!

BIKSHAIPATHIRAM by IIlaiyaraja

Was listening to IIlaiyaraja 's Ramana Malai and got addicted to the tune of "BIKSHAIPATHIRAM". Could understand the meaning of the first few lines. With the help of a Tamil friend, could get the translation of the song. Blessed! Toggle Translation BIKSHAIPATHIRAM - this literally means the vessel which the beggars use for begging.... BIKSHAIPATHIRAM ENTHI VANTHAEN ...AYYANE EN AYYANE I have come carrying the bikshapathiram .. ayyane .. ayyane... ( it can be termed as guru .. father... ) PINDAM ENUM ELUMBODU SATHAI NARAMBU UTHIRAMUM ADANGIYA UDANMBENUM BIKSHAIPATHIRAM ENTHI VANTHAEN ...AYYANE EN AYYANE Carrying the body with bones nerves muscles blood as bikshapathiram ... I have come carrying the bikshapathiram .. ayyane .. ayyane... BIKSHAIPATHIRAM ENTHI VANTHAEN ...AYYANE EN AYYANE AMMAIYUM APPANUM THANTHATHA... is that bikshapathiram given by mom & dad ? ILLAI AADHIYIN VALVINAI SOOZHTHATHA or it is cause from the deeds of our roots?...

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